autumn_xloserx's Journal

June 30th is the day that I will never forget. It was the day where Amy,Bailey,and I found love. It was a strange way though,very strange. It was a sunny day in June. The day was going all bad for us,because we had to move away from Louisiana and move to Lawerence, Kansas. That was where Amy and Bailey gotten a better job at. They were both an RN,but worked diferrent shifts,so It was kind of confusing.

Bailey- *knocks on Amy's door- Amy! Wake your ass up,you have to get up and go to work!
Amy- *She slowly gets up and almost falls- WHOA! IM UP!
Me- *looks over at Amy* Amy! I have school in a few minutes,so shut your mouth and let me sleep!
Bailey- OHH SHIIT FIGHT!
Amy- You shut up you little bitch!
Me- whatever! -falls back to sleep-

My few minutes of sleeping was over. I gotten up to go take a shower and got ready for school. Im going to school to go for photography. I love pictures,they are wonderful. They can express how a person feels or just show the beauty in something. I couldn't wait to get my degree and be a photographer. I was so happy that this week is the last week of the 1st semster.

Bailey- What time do you get out of class for lunch?
Me-Uhm,-yawns- Around 11:00,Why? What's up?
Bailey- Well,I was wondering if you and Amy would like to go eat Johnny's pizza with me for lunch.
Me-Yeah,sure...what time does she have lunch?
Bailey- Same time as you.
Me-Sounds damn good. See you at 11:00.
Bailey- Have a good day!
Me- you too.

Today was the most boring day ever! Our teacher wasn't there,she had the sticken flu. All the kids were clowning around throwing shit all over the room,So I just said screw this and went to sleep. 11:00 came around pretty damn fast,so I got in my car and met up with Amy and Bailey. We all sat down at a table after we got done ordering our pizza.

Amy-So,Autumn,How's your day been?
Me-Boring!
Bailey-Aw Why is that?
Me-Teacher isn't here,and all the stupid people were acting like 3 year olds.
Both of them-Damn!

The guy delivered us pizza. We all got quiet and ate our food. For some reason,I had to look up and I saw three good looking guys. One was wearing a blue jean jacket with a white shirt and blue jeans. He had short hair. The other guy had a black shirt on with blue jeans and had flippy hair. I thought to myself,wow,those look like their type of a guy. The one that I liked had a gun'n'roses shirt on with blue jeans with short hair also. I couldn't stop staring at him,he was so gorgeous,he was my dream in a guy.

Me-*looks at my watch* I have to go back to school.
Both of them- Bye! Love ya.
Me-Love ya'll too.

I get up and I wasn't paying attention to where I was going,like always. I bumped into someone and I look up and it was him..the one I like from that crew. I was shocked and embarrassed! My face turned red and I opened my mouth,but nothing but air came out. He smiled at me and I just walked off and went back to school.

As I drove up near the school,I saw the school was on fire. I didn't know what to do,So I called Bailey up.

Me-Bailey! The school is on fire,I don't know what to do!
Bailey-I'll be up there in a minute since im still in town!

As the firefighters was putting the fire out,Bailey made sure everyone were okay. A young boy was hurt,So they put him in the hospital asap. He had fallen asleep in the classroom and no one bothered to get him up. So He had burns all over him and he awaken,when he realized what was going on,he ran as fast as he could and fell down the stairs and broke his leg. Thank goodness someone recuse him.

As I look at the guy who was hurt,it was the same guy I saw in Johnny's pizza..the guy I like. The other same guy with the flippy hair was the firefighter who gotten him out. He was yelling to another nurse ''You've got to help my little brother!'' I was shocked,they didn't look like brothers.

Bailey and the firefigther somehow got to talking. They was talking about the fire.

Bailey-So how long you've been a firefighter?
Guy-since I was 19,Im 21 now.
Bailey- That's cool. Im 21 too. Im an RN.
Guy-That's cool...but uhm,I know we just met,but I think you're really pretty,do you want to hang out sometime?
Bailey- Sure! Sounds great.

As they give out their numbers to each other to caught up on each other,I walk over to Bailey to tell her im going home. She nodded her head and said she was too. I got in my car and drove back home. I took off my shorts and shirt and put on my night gown. It was 12:00 when I got home and Bailey just drove up. She slammed the door behind her and complain about how busy her day was by checking everyone. It wouldn't be until Amy 3:00 gets off of work. So Bailey and I sat and watched tv.

Me-So,Bailey Jo! Who was the guy youwere talking too?
Bailey- what guy?
Me-The firefighter!
Bailey-Oh! His name is Sam! That was his little brother Adam who got hurt.
Me-Oh,well that sucks. Hope he gets to feeling better.
Bailey-Me too. Sam told me he wants to hang out with me sometimes.
Me- *gives the sex face* and he wants to put yo fire out!
Bailey- *turning red as an apple* Shut up!
Me- hahah Bailey and Sam!
Bailey- *gives me the go to hell look*

We both laughed and then we got back into watching tv. It was already 3:20 and Amy wasn't home. The phone rung at 3:25 and it was Amy. Her car broke down in the middle of nowhere. Bailey and I went to go see if we could help,but we had no idea what was wrong,so we called an mechanic to help. He arrived and he was the other guy I saw at Johnny's pizza. He helped Amy with her car problems,Amy's car is just a piece of shit anyways,so she's saving up money to get her a new car. This guy was hard up smiling at Amy. They got to talking and switched numbers. I was impressed. I was right,they were the type of guys they like!

Me & Bailey- *giggling and doing the hand thing we do-
Bailey- What's his name???
Amy- Dean! and he's so freaking sexah!
Me- Of course,you'll say that,Amy! *laughs*
Bailey- Yeah,only Amy will say that to someone she just met!
Amy- Shut up! It's not my fault Dean is sexy!

We all laughed at Amy. Then we all went home and got in ur pj's. I couldn't believe it was almost 9:00. This day has been flying by so fast,and yet,I couldn't get that boy out of my mind. What was so special about him? He's just another boy. Why do I get butterflies in my stomach when I think about him? Was I overreacting? I don't know,honestly.

Amy-Hey Bailey,Dean told me that Adam's school was on fire and he got hurt.
Bailey- Oh! So that was him? Sam told me about him,
Amy- SAM?! Who is this Sam we speak of?! -sex face-
Bailey- He's a firefighter! and he wants to hang out sometime.
Amy-OK,this is weird,Dean told me he had a brothr name Sam and Adam,So they're all brothers!
Me and Bailey- DUHH!!!

A few day passes by and Sam and Dean came over to our house. Amy,Bailey,Sam,and Dean were all outside smoking and I just gotten up from a nap. I walked outside to go join them. I introduced myself to them and they did the same. They seemed like cool dudes. They was talking about Adam. They said he is okay and will be home tomorrow evening.Actually,I was happy,because I knew he was okay. I keep asking myself,why do I even think about him and I don't even know him? It's just the question I couldn't find an answer too.

Dean- So,what are ya'll all doing tonight?
Amy- I don't know. Do you know Bailey?
Bailey- I don't know?Autumn?
Me-Heck if I know!
Sam- If ya'll don't care,but can we go see Adam? Even though he is coming home tomorrow,I still miss him.
Me-*in my head* YES!
Bailey,Amy,and Dean- Yeah!

We all got in Dean's truck and rode to the hospital. We got in Adam's room and my heart melted. He was so gorgeous! Sam and Dean introduced us to him and Adam introduced himself to us. He seemed like a cool dude too. He was only 19 years old and I was 18. Not bad at all. He was complaing how bad his leg hurts,I know how he feels to have a broken bone. I told him it will get better and he smiled at me. When he smiled at me,I couldn't help but to smile back. We had eye contact for a second,but then an nurse came in to give him his lunch.

Adam- Where you the girl who bumped into me at Johnny's pizza and ran off?
Me-Yeah...im sorry Im really a shy girl,but yeah..im sorry.
Adam- oh its fine! * he bites into his sandwich- YUCK! That's nasty. * throws it down* Not really hungry anyways.

Adam and I were alone in the room while everyone else went to go smoke. We was having a good conversation and alot of laughs. He said when he gets out of the hospitals,he wants us to hang out. I nodded my head and gave him my number. I told him if he needed someone for anything to text or call me.

A few minutes later,we all left and Dean and Sam took us back home and they went home also. It was only 7:00 and we was bored. Dean and Sam had to go take care of their grand-mother,because she was sick,so we wasn't mad about them leaving so soon. We wanted to watch family guy,so we put it on tv and watched it. I got up and went to take a shower.

Amy- Hurry up! I got to piss!
Me- Use to other bathroom!
Amy-Bailey is!
Me- *sighs and gets out to unlock to the door*
Amy- OMFG YES! *she ses the bathroom*
Me- DONT FLUSH THE
Amy-* flushes the toliet*
Me- SHIT AMY!
Amy- Sorry!

I got out of the shower and got my clothes on. I looked at my phone and some odd number messaged me.

Me- Who is this?
Guy- It's Adam!
Me- Oh hey!
Adam- How are you?
Me- Im great,how are you?
Adam- im pretty good,just ready to go home. Im so sick of this place and getting awoken almost every hour of the night.
Me- I know how you feel. I hate going to the hospital. It sucks.
Adam- yes it does.

Adam and I talked for hours about what we all like and what we are in school for. We had a good conversation,but he wanted to go get some rest,so I let him go. It was almost midnight,so I went to sleep. Amy and Bailey were still up and Was texting Adam's brothers'.

I took my hair down and picked up my hairbrush on my computer desk. I brushed my hair and when I was done,I placed it back in its place. I turn off the light and layed down in bed on my side. It didn't take me long to fall asleep.

The next morning Adam texted me at 9:00 asking me how I was doing. Honestly,my day hasn't even got started and it was already the best day of my life,because I knew I was on his mind just like he's always been on my mind since I first saw him. He told me he is going back to school to another college when he gets to feeling better. He wants to be a police,I find that attractive. A hot ass guy wanting to be a police,hell yeah.

Bailey- Well,im going to work,it's my time to work! Blah!
Amy- Haha! And today im off and you're not!
Bailey- Oh shut the hell up!
Me- Oh god! Let me go get Jerry Springer so ya'll can fight!
Bailey- *laughs and leaves for work*
Me-So,Amy..have you talked to Dean?
Amy-Yeah,Im texting him right now.
Me-Oh,Cool.

I brush my hair and straightin it and put on my make-up,Amy did the same. We were just bored and had nothing better else to do. Amy and I went to the park and acted like 5 year olds. It was a good time at the park with Amy. I just wish Bailey could've been there. I don't like them working different shifts at all,because we can't all hang out at the same time besides the weekend,but it's only 2 days. But,oh well,life isn't fair.

A few hours past by and Bailey came in from work. She was explaing to us what all happened today at work. Then we all got to talking about Sam,Dean,and Adam. Sam asked Bailey out on a date,and of course,she accepted it. Dean came knocking on our front door with a dozen of roses that had a letter ''Amy,be mine'' Amy jumped up and down like a little kid getting ice cream. I just sat back and laughed my ass off at her. A few minutes later,Amy and Dean went to eat out and Bailey went to go take a shower. I was sitting on the couch watching tv and I heard my phone going off. It was Adam,telling me he was home.

Adam-So,since im home what are you doing today?
Me-Uhm,nothing because Amy and Bailey are going out with Sam and Dean..what about you?
Adam-Nothing,just wanted to see if you will like to come over and hang out with me.
Me-Sure! What time do you want me there?
Adam-Uhm,what time is it now?
Me-4:00
Adam-6:00 will be fine. I can order us some chinese food to eat,that's if you like chinese.
Me-Oh yeah,I do..
Adam-Okay,I'll see you at 6:00
Me-Okay,see ya.

Amy and Bailey got all ready for their dates for tonight. Amy was wearing a A7x t-shirt with blue jean shorts with vans on. She had her long brown hair curly. Bailey had on a pink tank top on with a mini skirt on. She had her long blonde hair straight. When I was telling them how cute they look,Dean came and got Amy,then Sam came and got Bailey. So,I was home alone and I was going to get ready to go see Adam. I was excited to go see him. I had knots in my stomach just from thinking about it.I was looking through my closet trying to see what I could wear. I finally made up my mind. I put on my blink-182 shirt with blue jean shorts. I had my hair in my ponytail and I put earring that were hoops. I come out from the house and got in my car. I drove to Adam's house and I knocked on the door.

Adam- *yells* Come in!

I sigh and walked on in. He was sitting on the couch and already had the food ready on the table in front of him. He also had a movie in the dvd ready for it to play.He pats the sit next to him and I walk over and sit down by him. He smiles at me and I smile back.

Adam- I hope you like American Pie,because that's what we're watching.
Me- Oh yeah,sure they're funny
Adam- You look really pretty today.
Me-Oh,so I was ugly yesterday? *laughs*
Adam-*laughs* No! you just look different.
Me-Oh yeah,I actually have make-up on.
Adam-oh okay,well you don't need make-up,you're pretty without it.

That moment,I couldn't help but to blush. Ater a few seconds later. We was eating and watching the movie. He was laughing so hard he almost got choked on his food. I thought I was going to have to do cpr on his ass,but hey I wouldn't mind doing mouth-to-mouth with him.We got done eating and I laid back and watched the movie- The next thing I know,he has his arm around me. I smiled and my heart was beating really fast,seemed like my heart was going to pop out of my chest.

Adam- You don't mind if I have my arm around you?
Me-Please! If I did,do you think you would still have an arm?
Adam- This is true.
Me- Yeah,exactly,but you're cute,so I don't mind.

Adam looked at me and smiled. I looked at him and smiled back.

Adam- you have the most beautiful eyes and smile I have ever seen.
Me- Likewise.
Adam-No way.
Me-Uh,yes way!
Adam-Well,beat this,you're the most beautiful girl I've ever seen in my whole life and it doesn't matter if im 50,you'll still be the most beautiful girl.

That time,we didn't pay attention to the movie. We were just looking at each other and telling each other we looked better. But he won. Adam and I looked into each other eyes and he leaned in and kissed me. My heart exploded when he did. He leaned out of the kiss and looks at me. I look back at him and I placed my head on his chest. He started to play with my ponytail and I put my hair down and he played with it some more.

Adam- Autumn,I got a question.
Me- Shoot.
Adam- What do you think love is?
Me- I think..love..eh...
Adam- Ehh?
Me- Im trying to think of a way to say it.

At that point,I just wanted to say,YOU! He's the guy I've been looking for all my life. He was perfect.

Me- To me,love is where you would do anything for that person and you don't stop thinking about them. Also where everytime you think about them,your heart beats fast and you have butterflies in your stomach.
Adam-Wow,I have those feelings when I think of...
Me-Who?
Adam-You.
Me-*smiles* I do too.
Me- Adam,have you ever been in love before?
Adam- Not until I met you.
Me- What do you like about me?
Adam- Your smile and just the way you are. You're perfect.
Me-*Looks down smiling* You really think so.
Adam- I know so.

He leaned in and kisses me again. I kissed him back. It was 10:00 and Sam and Dean came in. They were tired from their night,so I went home so they could sleep. Adam hugged me and told me Goodbye. I was sad that I had to leave. I never knew how love felt until I saw Adam. It was the best feeling in the world.

Dean-So,Adam,you and Autumn?
Adam- *blushes* She's beautiful.
Sam- Oooohhh Adam has a crush!
Adam- So do you!
Sam- Yeah! So?!
Dean- Me and Amy are dating,
Sam-Cool. Me and Bailey are going out too. I looked into her eyes and said ''Bailey,I would be the happiest guy on this earth if you will be my girlfriend.'' and Yes,she said yes.
Adam- Well duh! You just said ya'll are dating!
Dean- *shakes head* Im going to bed!

It was 7:30 in the morning and I woke up from my phone ringing. It was Adam. He told me he misses me. I smiled and told him I miss him too. I fallen asleep on him and woke up at 9:45. I went to take a bath and got ready. I went outside to smoke a cigarette. Amy and Bailey were with Sam and Dean inside watching tv. They have been teasing me about Adam. All I did was just smile and flipped them off.

Me-What are ya'll doing today?
Amy- Me,Bailey,Dean and Sam are going bowling.
Me-oh okay. I'll just hang out here then. Or just go up to town.
Bailey-Nah! You going to go see Adam!
Everyone- OOH YAAAH *makes kissing noises*
Me- Oh shut up!

They all left to go bowl and eat. I stayed at home for a few hours and headed out to town. I went to Wal-mart and picked up a get well soon card for Adam. I wish his leg was better so we could go out and do something,but its okay though,it wasn't his fault that he got hurt,so I can't be mad at him. I like sitting down by him and talking to him anyways. I messaged him asking if I could come see him and he said he didn't mind. I drove to his house and came in his house.

Me- Hello there. How are you feeling?
Adam- I could be better,my leg is fucking killing me.
Me-*sits down by him* Oh I bet. Oh I got you something.*Hands him the card*

He got the card and it read on the front. ''Get well soon'' with a smile on it. He opened it up and it read ''Adam,I know we havent' known each other for long,but it seems like I've known you all my life. Get better asap. Love,Autumn.''

Adam- *smiles* Thank you,Autumn. That made my day.
Me- You made my day whenever you told me that you missed me,
Adam- Because it's true. Every second you're gone I miss you even more.
Me-*Blushes and smiles* Wow,you left me speechless.

Adam then kissed me. I was so happy when I was around him. It felt like the only person I could see was him.

Adam- Autumn..
Me-Adam...
Adam-Will...
Me-Will??
Adam- You..*looks at me*
Me-Yes?
Adam-Be my girlfriend?
Me-*smiles and kisses him* Does that answer your question?
Adam- *smiles* Yes it did.

A few hours past by,Adam and I were talking and I had my head on his chest and we were holding hands. We both fell asleep on the couch and Dean,Amy,Sam,and Bailey walked in and went ''AWWWWWW'' I was like what the fuck,fuck this shit! And went back to sleep. A few minutes later they were taking pictures so we got pissed and woke up. Adam was telling them that we are dating and they was happy for us. It was getting late,so Sam said that we could stay with them tonight.

Dean-We have a guest bedroom,it has two beds in there and a bathroom. I would let Amy sleep in the bed with me,but not enough room. I have a twin size bed,And so does Sam.
Me- Pst! Good! No boom boom pow!
Amy- No boom boom pow for you and Adam!
Me- Pst! *laughs* I know. We just started dating and you thinking we want to go fuck! Nasty minded!

Everyone laughed. It was midnight so we all went to bed. Amy slept in a bed by herself and I slept in the bed with Bailey. We was all talking and giggling about our boyfriends. We soon got done talking and went to sleep.

It was 11:00 until everyone got up. We all brushed our teeth and used the bathroom. We went outside with the Sam and Dean. Adam doesn't smoke,but he doesn't care that I smoke,but I told him if he ever wanted me to quit,that I would,just for him. After our smoke break,Dean went and got us pizza and brought it back to his house. We all sat at the table in the kitchen.

Sam- So,Bailey,do you have work tomorrow?
Bailey- Yep.
Amy- Yeah,So do I. I can't believe that girl quit! Oh well,more money for me!
Adam- Why did that girl quit,if you know?
Amy- Because she was starting drama up there and our boss don't take that shit. So she said she quit.
Adam- Damn.
Me- yeah, She's the same girl who I was best friends with until she started telling me how to live my life. Her name is Tess. I heard she moved back to Louisiana to go back to working at Foxes.
Sam- What's that?
Me- It's a pizza place.
Sam- Oh cool.
Dean- So,Autumn,do you work?
Me- Im looking for a job like in the mall. I tried hot topic and clair's. If they want me,they suppose to call me sometime this week. I hope I get it.
Bailey- How much do they both pay?
Me- Uhm,they both pay 8.00 an hour.
Adam- That's awesome.
Me- Yeah,I want a job so since im out of school due to the fire..I want money. So it looks like my dreams of being an photographer has flew out of the window.
Sam- Can you go to college online?
Adam- I believe you can. I saw it online,because I want to go online for college and I saw photography on there.
Me-*mouth drops* Really?! Are you serious!?
Adam- As a heartattack!

When we got done eating and smoking I hailed ass to the computer and saw that I can go online for college. I signed up for it and it accepted me in there. I couldn't wait! My dream job is still in! And Im glad Adam can still be a police like he always dreamed of too. This was so exciting. I was so happy. I had to wait to order my books until I get a job,so I wouldn't bum money off of anybody. I got offline and Adam got on and started to study on study guide for his test. He already had books from his friend who is a police.

Adam asked me to come help him study for his test,So I did. He had a little trouble with some questions,but he got better. He got tired of studying for an hour and a half,so we quit. We went outside on the backyard with everyone else. Everyone was talking and joking around.

Bailey-Man,it sucks that Me and Amy has work tomorrow. We have to go home tonight.
Sam- Yeah it does suck. Call me when you get off work tomorrow.
Dean- Same for you Amy!
Amy-Alright! I will.
Me-What time do ya'll have work?
Bailey-7:00 until 3:00
Me- Damn. Im going to be bored at the house.
Dean- Not unless you have Adam there with you. *winks at Adam*
Adam-*blushes* Shut the hell up.
Amy- Adam you can stay with us if you want too. I don't care and so can Dean and Sam.
Dean-Nah,we have work.
Sam- Yeah we do. But Adam do you want to stay with Autumn?
Adam-Okay,sure.

Bailey and Amy rode home in their car and I drove home in my car with Adam. He sat in the back to have more room with his leg. He was talking to me about how excited he is to be in college online. We arrived at the house and I helped him get in and I got his bag of clothes in. We all sat in the living room and talked. Bailey and Amy went to bed so it was just me and Adam up watching tv. We didn't have another room for Adam and I wasn't going to make him sleep on the couch,so I told him he could sleep in my bed with me. He was fine with that,of course! We both went to my bedroom and layed down. He held me in his arms and he kissed me.

Me-I can't believe your brothers and my sisters let you stay with me.
Adam- I know right,me too.
Me- Yeah,shocking,guess because im 18.
Adam- Could be. Oh well,it's fine with me.
Me-*smiles* It's fine with me too.
Adam-*smiles back* Well babygirl,im going to go to sleep. Goodnight. I love you.
Me- Me too. I love you too.

I heard Bailey and Amy getting up and fussing at each other. They were bitching about who is going to wear which scrub. I just got up and yelled SHUT UP AND PICK and went back to my room and went back to sleep. They laughed and said DAMN! I fell back to sleep. I felt Adam put his arm around me. At 10:30 I woke up and Adam wasn't there. I got up and went to the bathroom. When I finish,I saw Adam in the kitchen eating some cereal.

Adam- Well good morning my gorgeous lady.
Me- Good morning.
Adam- Where are you going?
Me- Im going to go smoke.
Adam- Okay baby,I'll wait.
Me- Okay.

I got done smoking my cigarette and went back inside. Somehow Adam made me a bowl of cereal and placed it on the table. I thought to myself,''Damn,this boy must really love me. He has a broken leg and he made me breakfeast. Im impressed!'' I smiled and so did he and I sat at the table.

Me- Thank you for making me some cereal.
Adam- Anything for you,sweetheart.
Me- *takes a bite of the cereal* What do you want to do today?
Adam- Just whatever you want to do.
Me- Well,I just want to stay here,I don't feel like doing anything today.
Adam- Sounds good to me.
Me- What time do you have to be home? Or if you want too,you can stay with me again.*smiles big*
Adam- I'll ask Sam and Dean if I can if you want too.
Me-NAW! I don't want you to stay,so I just asked you to stay again! *looks at him and laughs a little*
Adam-*laughs* Okay.

When I got done eating. We went and sat on the couch in the living room. We were watching Grown ups. Me and him both loves that movie,we pretty much have the same taste when it comes to movies,but music,not so good. I like rock music,and he likes alot of rap songs. Im getting him into rock someday! I don't care what he says. He has to like rock,it's awesome.Anyways,Adam fell asleep on the couch,so I went and got him a blanket so he wouldn't be cold. While he was asleep,I went and smoked me a cigarette and then I cleaned the house and folded up my clothes. Adam was still asleep,so I went to go take a warm bath. I stayed in there for 30 minutes. I got out and dryed off and put my clothes on. I walked in the living room and Adam finally woke up.

Me- well well,Look who finally got up!
Adam- I was tired and your couch is comfy!
Me-Haha,Yeah it is comfy.*sits down on the couch beside him*
Adam-*puts his arm around me*Soooo..
Me- Sooo what?
Adam- What do you want to do?
Me- I don't know..what you want to do?
Adam- I don't know.
Me- Well that helps..alot!
Adam-Haha yeah.
Me-Do you like ice cream?
Adam-Yeah.
Me-Want to go get some? I'll pay for it.
Adam-Uhm no,I'll pay for it.
Me-Okay. Fine.

Me and Adam got in my car and went to Sonic. Im glad he wanted to be pay for it,because Amy only gave me 10 dollars yesterday in case I needed it. I ordered me an oreos blast and I ordered him a m&m's blast. We waited for 2 minutes and got our ice cream. We drove off and we wanted to go back home. As we get to the house,he grabed my arm and I looked at him.

Adam-Please,don't ever leave me. I never had this feeling towards a girl before.
Me- I would have to be stupid to leave you.

Adam kisses me and I kissed him back. We both got out of the car and I unlocked the door and got us inside. We sat at the kitchen table and talked and talked for hours. Amy and Bailey gotten off of work. They both took off their shoes and sat at the table with us. They were both on the phone with their boyfriends and they asked them to come over. So they did. Sam and Dean were all dirty from work. We all sat at the table and talked about how our day went.

At 5:00 Sam,Dean,and Adam went home. Their grand-mother wanted to see Adam,so he went home. I went to my room and jammed to some Taking back sunday. Amy and Bailey were asleep on the couch,like always,they are both off of work tomorrow.

Amy- Bitch ass! What you want for supper?
Me- It don't matter.
Bailey- I want some rice and gravy,with rolls and a chicken patty!
Me-sounds good to me!
Amy-Sure does!

It was Amy turn on cooking tonight. We take turns cooking. One week it will be Amys,then Baileys,and then mine. I didn't mind cooking,it was my mind for the taking turns so one person wouldn't have to cook all the time,so it's easier doing it that way. The food was gone in 20 minutes. So we got our food and dug in. We were starving.

At 3:00 in the morning I still awake,I could smell Adam's scent on the side of my bed that he slept on. It smelt so good,he was wearing Axe. So sexahh. I turned over to face the wall and fell asleep.

It has been 5 years since Me and Adam started dating. Amy and Dean are married and Bailey and Sam are married too. Amy and Dean has a boy name Bently. Bailey and Sam has a girl name Maddie. They were so adorable. I couldn't believe I was an aunt. Anyways, Bently is 1 and Maddie is 2 months old. Amy and Dean are my next door neighbors now and so is Sam and Bailey. They let me have the house we were living so and my bro-in-laws sold their house so we could live next to each other.

Me- Ah,home from work!
Adam- Thank god! I missed you,
Me- I missed you too,sweetie.
Adam- I don't want to go to work tonight. I hate working night shift.
Me- Hey now,you're the one who wanted this job so don't complain.
Adam- I know,I know!
Me- What do you want me to cook for supper?
Adam- Pick anything.
Me- I'll order us pizza then.

I ordered us a pizza. Adam went and picked up the pizza and brought it back home and we dug in. It was 9:00 and he had work at 10:00. When he was done eating. He went and hopped in the shower and got ready. I wasn't looking foward to him going to work,I never am. Im scared something might happen to him like what happened to that police back in Louisiana. I pray to God he will be okay.

It was 9:45 and Adam had to leave for work. He gave me a goodbye/goodnight kiss and told me he loved me. I watched him leave and I hate seeing him go. I smoked me a cigarette while I was outside. I saw Bailey driving to her and Sam's house. She was coming in from wal-mart. She gotten paid today,so she went to the store.Amy and Dean were already asleep since they had work tomorrow. Bailey was off tomorrow,but Sam wasn't.

I go back inside and lock all the doors and make sure the windows were locked. I crawled into the bed and watched tv until I fell asleep. I was thinking about everything and anything. I had to talk to Amy and Bailey tomorrow about something private. So when Amy gets off work I'll ask them to come over since Adam will be asleep in our bedroom.

The next day I waited for Amy to get off. Adam was upstairs asleep. It was only 2:30 and Amy gets off at 3:00.I called Bailey and told her to come over when Amy gets off. I messaged Amy and told her to come over after work. I waited and waited and Amy was off work. They both came and was kind of scared.

Me- I have to tell ya'll something.
Both of them- What!?
Me-Im..
Both- WHAT?!!?!
Me-*says in a low voice* pregnant.
Both of them-* their mouth both drop* When did you found out?
Me- Well,yesterday I went to the store and gotten an test and it came back postive.
Amy- So,does Adam know?
Me-No..
Bailey- When are you going to tell him?
Me- Well,since he's off tonight,I probably will tonight.

They were both surprised and happy. We've been together for 5 years and we've been living with each other for 2 years it seems like. So,we can handle each other. Im just nervous to tell Adam that im pregnant. I told Amy and Bailey to not tell Dean or Sam until Adam knows,because I want Adam to find out by me.

Adam woke up at 5:00 and was hungry. I fixed him supper and we ate in the living room for a chance because he wanted to watch tv.

Me- So,uhm,How was work last night?
Adam- It went pretty good. Had to put a 16 year in jail last night for having drugs in his car.
Me-Oh damn,what the fuck is up with people these days doing drugs? I just don't get what is so special about it.
Adam- Don't ask me sweetie,I don't know.

It got quiet for a few minutes and I was going to tell him the news. If only I could just open my mouth and say ''Adam! Im pregnant!'' But noooo,I want to be a little pussy and be scared to tell him. Im sure he won't get mad,So I look up at him.

Me-Adam..I have to tell you something..

Adam looks up at me and stops eating. He took a sip of his sweet tea I made him today since he ran out yesterday.

Adam- Yes?
Me- Please don't get mad at me.
Adam- I won't baby...well depends...
Me-....im..pregnant.

Adam spits out his sweet tea into his cup.

Adam- REALLY?!
Me- Yep..I'm seriously..
Adam- Im going to be a Daddy!

I smile and so does he. Im glad I finally had the nerve to tell him,and now we're happy,because we're going to become parents. He was so happy that he called his grand-mother,Sam,Dean,and his friends about the news.

Me and Adam were thinking of names for the Baby. We both liked Summer Rayne Winchester and Karah Elizabeth Winschester for a girl We only liked one name for a boy and it was Devin Scott Winchester. We just chose Devin for the boy,but not sure about the girls' name yet.

Adam- How long are you?
Me- I don't know. Im going to the doctor tomorrow to check everything out. Do you want to come?
Adam- Sure,I'll love to come. *he smiles and kisses me*
Me-*kisses him back*

We do nothing else for the rest of the day. We went to bed early and woke up at 8:00 and got ready to go to the doctors' office. He drove to the office. We was both still happy that we're having a baby. We arrived there and waited 22 minutes and they called us. A few minutes goes by and the doctor tells us we're 2 months pregnant. We paid for our visit and went to go eat.

Me- I hope it's a girl!
Adam- No,I want it to be a boy!
Me- Ha! Funny! A girl is way better!
Adam- Whatever!
Me- Well,whatever it is,I'll still love it.
Adam-Yeah,me too. I just like messing with you. *sticks tongue out at me*
Me- uh huh!

When we got home,I looked in the mirror at the stomach. I couldn't believe a little baby was inside there and how big I would get in a few months. Amy brought Bentley over to visit with us in the evening. I love it when Bently and Maddie comes over,but Bailey and Sam took Maddie to go see Baileys' mom.

Amy- So have you thought of any names for the baby?
Me- Well,for a girl,We both like Karah Elizabeth Winchester and for a boy,Devin Scott Winchester.
Amy- Aw cute!
Me- Yeah,Of course Adam chose the boy name. Haha! He picked Elizabeth for the middle name for Karah.
Amy- Well,I like those names.
Me- I do too,I was impressed that he helped with the girl names! Haha!

Me and Amy talked for 2 hours about the baby names. We were also talking about how we're going to spoil the little baby when the baby gets here. Im kind of ready for the baby to come,but then im not,because it's going to be hard to work and have a baby.

Amy and Bently left since Dean was back home from work. He gotten off early,because they wasn't busy at all that day,so their boss let them take off for the rest of the day. Since Amy went home, went and cleaned the dishes and folded up laundry. Adam just got home from paying the bills and getting stuff from wal-mart. Since I had work tomorrow,I was trying to get stuff around the work cleaned up so I wouldn't have to do it tomorrow after work. Adam has been wanting me to do sit around so my feet wouldn't get swallon up from getting up too much,but it's a habit,I like to clean and cook for him.

Adam- Why have you been cleaning? I told you to rest.
Me- I know,I know. It's just a habit.
Adam-*sighs* well sit down,I'll do the rest.
Me- Are you sure?
Adam- Yes,I'am. For now on,I'll be the cook now.
Me- Okay,fine with me.
Adam- It better be!
Me- Or what?
Adam- I'll kick your ass. *winks at me*
Me- uh huh!

Adam had cooked us supper. He made homemade pizza,and it was good too. After we got done eating,we sat down and watched tv. I was getting tired,so I went to take a shower and went to bed. I had to get up at 7:00 to go to work. I wasn't wanting to go to the work tomorrow,but I had to anyways wether I liked it or not. I felt Adam crawling in the bed at midnight and we cuddled. He was so warm and comfy. I love it when he cuddles with me.

7:00 was here so I had to get up and get ready for work. We can wear whatever we want to at work,thank god! I picked out a white sundress and wore pink flip-flops. I had my hair in a ponytail and wore a little bit of make-up. I was dreading going to work.

Adam-good morning
Me-*jumps* Hello! Didn't know you were awake!
Adam- I just wanted to tell my angel good morning.
Me-*smiles* Well good morning.
Adam- What time do you get off?
Me- 4:00
Adam- Oh okay,Im going to be asleep most of the day since I have work tonight,so I'll see you then.*gives me a goodbye kiss*

I got in my car and drove to Mcdonalds to get me breakfeast. I ate on the way to work and got to work right on time. We took alot of pictures that day. I told everyone I was pregnant so they would know incase I gotten sick or something so they wouldn't think I was faking it just to go home. Everyone was happy for me,but my boss was kind of mad.

Boss- Autumn! My office! NOW!

I followed him to his office and sat down.

Me- Is there a problem?
Boss- Yes it is..
Me- Then what is it?
Boss- you being pregnant,you know how I feel about photographers being pregnant. You can't take alot of pictures when you're pregnant,because you'll get swallon feet and get sick and miss alot of work. I can't believe you!
Me- Well Sorry! Last time I checked you were my boss,not my mother! And I didn't expect to get pregnant either,but these things just happens.
Boss- Well,if you would keep your slutty legs closed you wouldn't have this problem!

I stood up and slapped the fuck out of him. And of course I got fired,I didn't care,no one doesn't tell me how to run my life or call me a slut,because im not. Im better off without this job anyways,Adam wanted me to quit anyways, because of my boss. He's nothing but an asshole,it's either his way or the highway. So I was glad he fired me. I drove home and got back in the bed with Adam. Adam woke up.

Adam- What you doing home early?
Me- I got fired..
Adam- Oh shit! Why?
Me- Because he called me a slut for getting pregnant so I slapped the hell out of him.
Adam-*pats my head* Good girl. *smiles*
Me- uh huh!

I called Amy and everyone else about what happened today when I got up from a nap. They were shocked that he called me a slut. They told me I was better off anyways,and I believe I'am. Adam told me he doesn't want me to work until I have the baby and when I get better.I just nodded my head and said okay. Well,Adam makes enough on his paycheck anyways. So I was glad I didn't have to work for a while now,I can rest alot more!

It was now time for Adam to go to work. I gave him a goodbye/goodnight kiss like I always do and he left for work. I went back in bed and watched Mtv. Bailey had text me.

Bailey- What are you doing?
Me- Laying down watching tv..hbu?
Bailey- Nothing,bored! What are you doing tomorrow/
Me- Nothing.Why?
Bailey-I just wanted to see if you wanted to come over.
Me- Okay I will.

I fell asleep at 1:00 in the morning and woke up at 9:00. I took a shower and got ready to go see Bailey. I got out of the house and locked the door behind me. I walked over to Baileys house and knocked on the door. She answered the door and was still in her moo-moo.

Me- Sexy dress! *laughs*
Bailey-Shoot! Im in my moo-moo!
Me- I see that!
Bailey-Do you still smoke?
Me-Yes.
Bailey-Well let's smoke!

We stayed outside and smoked and talked about my boss,about how much of a asshole he is. Then we went inside ad she cooked us breakfeast. She made eggs,bacon,and we had jelly on toast. I was pretty hungry so I ate all of mine. We went to town and got stuff around for her house and since I brought my purse with my wallet,I got some stuff too. I bought Adam a new shirt that had skulls on it and the shirt was black. I got me a pink shirt with ''Girl's just want to have fun'' on it. Then I got us some Dr.pepper's and Coke's for the house.

Bailey- Is that all you need?
Me- Yeah,Adam is waiting for me at the house now.
Bailey- Oh,okay!
Me-Yeah,is that all you need? We don't have to rush back home just because he is waiting for me. You can take your time getting what you need.
Bailey-Okay,well I need to go get some more make-up and hairspray.
Me-Okay,well while you do that,I'll go check my stuff out.
Bailey-Okay.

I went to the self check out and paid for my stuff. I went and sat down on the bench waiting for Bailey. I saw her walking to the self check out to pay for her stuff. A few seconds later we was walking out of wal-mart and going home. I was wondering why Adam was waiting for me at the house. I hope he didn't do anything stupid. We arrive to Bailey's house. I help her bring in her stuff to her house and she helped me with my stuff. I told her to place all the stuff she got on my table and I'll put them up when I get the time. Bailey went and home and Adam in the kitchen cooking lasgana.

Adam- Soo...you know what today is?
Me-July 5?
Adam-*coughs and gives me a look*
Me-*gasp* Oh my god Baby! Im sorry I forgot about our anniversary!

I ran up to him and kiss him hard and he done the same. I was wondering why he had roses on the table and was cooking one of my favorite meals. We both sat down at the table and ate and talked about how we met and how wonderful it was.

Me-Yeah,I remember bumping into you at Johnny's pizza and being speechless. My heart was racing so fast and you smiled at me. I was so embarassed. I wanted to tell you sorry,but nothing but air came out of my mouth!
Adam- Haha,it's cool. Sam and Dean were teasing me about it because they had a feeling that you thought I was cute..and they were right. *winks at me* I told them that you're the most gorgeous girl I've ever seen.
Me-*blushes* I was a shy around you.
Adam- And why was that? *smirking at me*
Me- Because,why woulnd't I? You were so hot in that guns'n'roses shirt on with blue jeans. You're still hot though. *winks at him*
Adam- I like it when you wink at me.
Me- I bet you do.

That night we did make love for at least an hour. I couldn't believe it has been 5 years since Adam and I have been dating. I'm glad I have met him. When we got done making love he fell asleep,but I didn't. I was wide awake watching tv. I didn't fall to sleep until 3:00 in the morning.

2 months later,Adam and I were going to the doctors' office to find out the sex of the baby. We waited for 40 minutes in the waiting room. It was alot of people there today.Then suddenly,I heard a nurse called my name.

Nurse-Autumn Hutto.

Me and Adam got up and followed her. She checked on the baby and I and we we're good. She put us in this room where we can see the baby and I layed down on the bed. Now we we're just waiting to see what the sex of the baby is.

Ater 10 minutes,the doctor finally came in.

Doctor- And how are ya'll today?
Both of us- Good.
Doctor-that's good.*she smiles*

I rose my shirt up and the doctor put the gel on my stomach. We first saw the baby and the baby looked alot like Adam as a baby. She looked at me and Adam and smiled.

Doctor- Congrats..It's a ..
Adam- Boy?!
Doctor- GIRL!
Me-YAY! I told you,Adam!
Doctor-*laughs*

After a few minutes,we left the doctor's office and I called everyone up to tell them the news. They we're happy that it was a girl. Adam was wanting a boy,but he's still happy that she is healthy and so am I. We went to Dean's house and Adam,Sam,and Dean were talking. Me,Amy,and Bailey were talking.

Me- I'm so happy it's a girl!
Bailey- Me too!
Amy- I wanted a nephew! But! I'm still going to to spoil her anyways.
Me- Of course you are!
Bailey- I'm going to dress her up pretty!

We all laugh and giggle about my little angel. I couldn't wait to see her adorable face.

Bailey- Have you chose a name for her?
Me- Me and Adam likes Karah Elizabeth Winchester.
Amy- Aw! That's cute!
Me- Thank you!
Bailey- I love it!

Me and Adam went home after a few hours of talking with them. We layed down on our bed snuggling and talking. Next thing I know,we're asleep. I always love how I always fall asleep in his arms and feel like im in heaven.

Me- Adam! My water just broke!
Adam- Oh shit!

He carries me to the car and we go to the hospital. It's already time for my baby to be born. Damn time flies by so fast. I never really gotten sick with her. We arrive at the hospital and they put me in the room. Adam already called Dean and Sam. Them niggas beat us up there! Amy and Bailey were with them too. The only reason why they beat us is because they were already in town though.

I was in labor for 24 hours. Lovely. Today was Feb.5th. My Dad's birthday. He lives in louisiana. He stayed there with our mom so she wouldn't be lonely. It was 12:01 and Karah was born. She looked just like Adam when he was a baby. She had brown hair and green eyes like me and had his face. She was so adorable. Adam cried when she was born,because he was happy.

Amy and Bailey- AWWW BABY!
Dean- Yo,im an uncle again!
Sam- She's a cute little shit!
Me-*laughs* Yes,she is.

Me and Adam were the only one up there now. They all left 2 hours ago. The doctor came in and told since She's doing good and since im doing good we can go home soon. I was happy to go home! Thank god! I was ready to get out of this hospital!

A few days later,Adam,Karah,and Me all went home. Karah was crying because she was hungry so I made her a bottle of her milk. I picked her up and rocked her while she was eating.

Adam- Can I feed and rock her?
Me- Sure,while you do that I'll jump in the shower.
Adam- Okay baby.

I jumped in the shower and got cleaned. I havent taken a shower in a day so,I finally did now. When I got out I blew dry my hair and straightin it and put it up in a messy ponytail. Adam was done feeding Karah and she went to sleep. Adam put her in her crib and Adam and I went outside. He now smokes,I don't know why he started,guess he was stressed out about his grand-mothers' death back in August. I felt so bad for him. He was really close to her. He use to live with her and so did Sam and Dean.

Bailey- So Autumn,Adam,How's it going?
Me- It's been good. Adam really likes to rock and feed her.*Smiles and looks over at Adam*
Adam- Yes,I really do.*smiles and looks back at me*
Sam- Where is Karah?
Adam- Inside asleep.

Sam goes inside and holds Karah. Dean went inside with Sam to go see Karah. They both loved her too death. They were fighting,because they both wanted to hold her. So I told them to just take turns,so they did. We all were now inside talking about how cute Karah is.

Karah was now 5 months old. Adam was gone to work and I was wide awake and Karah was asleep. I was laying down in bed watching CSI on my DVR. I was so ready to see Adam again,even though it was only a few hours ago he left for work. I hate it when he left for work. That's why I wished he worked in the morning time instead of night time. A few minutes later,I feel asleep.

I wake up when Adam came home from work. He started singing and hitting every motherfucking thing in the room,so I got pissed off and woke up.

Adam- Well good morning!
Me-*gives him a eat shit look* must you hit everything?
Adam- Whoa! Sorry! O_O
Me- It's okay..I just haven't been sleeping good lately.
Adam- Why is that?
Me- *points at Karah* She cries every night at 3 AM,but I aint mad at her,im just really tired. I'll be glad when she gets older.
Adam- Hey,you're the one who wanted it.
Me- And you're the one who fucked me and got me knocked me,so it takes 2 to make a baby.
Adam- *laughs*

Adam and I both went to sleep in an hour. It felt so good to actually sleep by him. I felt like I was in heaven again. Karah started crying at 9:00 AM wanting to eat. I made her a bottle and fed her. Adam didn't wake up until 3:00 PM. He was off tonight. Since Sam,Dean,and Adam were all off,they went and had a guys night out. Amy and Bailey came over to my house and stayed for a while.

Amy-So how are you and Adam?
Me- We're good. I just miss him alot though.
Bailey- Awww.
Me- We never spend time with each other anymore. Since he works night time. It sucks ass so much.
Amy- Yeah,I bet it does. Im sorry.
Me-It's okay..wish they would make it where he would work in the morning time.
Bailey- Has he ask them about it?
Me- Yeah,but they said no.
Amy- What the fuck?
Me- I know.
Bailey- Maybe in the future they will change it.
Me- Yeah,so how are ya'll and ya'll guys doing?
Bailey- Me and Sam are good.
Amy- Well,me and Dean has got in a couple of fights,but it was over something stupid. But,we're over it.
Me- That's good.

Dean,Sam,and Adam came over to the house when they got back from guys night out. We were all outside on the backporch. Karah was in my arms asleep,Maddie and Bently were in the yard playing on the swing set.

Dean- Man,we had a blast. We went and saw the new fast and the furious movie then we went and ate taco bell.
Sam- We also went to skate town.
Me- Fun.
Adam- It was.
Amy- So. What is everyone doing tomorrow since it's Saturday?
Me- Not a damn thing.
Bailey- Sleeping in!
Dean- Not shit.
Sam- Same here!
Adam- Sleep in all day and have to go to work.
Amy- Damn. It sucks you have work Adam.
Adam- I know. It does. I hate it.
Me- Well why wouldn't they let you work in the morning time?
Adam- Because,they said they had enough people on there.
Me- Uhm..Okay.

It was midnight when everyone left. Adam was in the kitchen reading the newspaper and I was putting Karah to sleep.

Adam- Fix me some coffee!
Me- Kiss my ass!
Adam-*smirks* Which acre?
Me- Which one you please to put yo lips on honeybee!*laughs and gives him coffee*
Adam- thanks baby!
Me- I really don't like you working night time...
Adam- Why?
Me-Because,I miss you alot and I never get to spend alot of time with you like we use too. And I can't sleep good at night anymore,because you're not by me.
Adam- Really? You miss me that much that you can't sleep at night?
Me- Well,yeah. I've been feeling depressed lately since we've not been spending time together.
Adam- Wow. that just made me..feel..wow..
Me- It's true. I'd be so lost without you. That's why I wish they would let you work in the mornings.

Adam and I went and layed down in the bed. We both was watching tv and I fell asleep in his arms. For once,I wasn't depressed. I felt like I was me again. I was so happy that he actually went and layed down with me until he had to go to sleep and then go to work.

I woke up at 12:00 and Adam had Karah in his arms,rocking her to sleep. I was fucking impressed,he knew how tired I was,so he let me sleep in. While he was rocking Karah. I went to take a shower and washed my hair. It needed it so bad. I havent washed it in 2 days. I got out of the shower and Adam was passed out with Karah in the rocking chair. I got Karah and put her in her crib. I woke Adam up and told him to get in bed. He did and I went to go blow dry and straightin my hair. When I got done,I smoked a cigarette.

I was so bored all day,so I cleaned up the house and Karah woke up. I wrote a note beside Adam on the side of the bed Adam was sleeping on. It read ''Gone to town. Be back later if you wake up before I come back.'' Karah was dancing to some music I had on the radio. I had to play her favorite song. Her favorite song is Beautiful by Eminem. She sings to it also,It's so cute. While I was in wal-mart I bumped into Sam.

Sam- Hey Autumn, What are you doing?
Me- I got bored,so Karah and I came to town.
Sam- I had to get pizzas for the party we having at work Monday.
Me- That is cool. Why are ya'll having a party?
Sam- Someone moving away,so we are having a get to together.
Me- That is cool.
Sam-*His phone rings and it's Bailey* Hello?
Bailey- WHERE THE FUCK ARE YOU?
Sam- At wal-mart! Why are you yelling at me?
Bailey- I haven't seen you all damn day! I got needs nigga! Get yo ass home ASAP!
Me- Oh,well I love to stay and chat,but I got to go. Adam should be awake by now.
Sam- Okay,see ya later. Bye Karah,I love ya kid!

Karah and I got done shopping and I put Karah in the car and then the bags in there. I got in the car and drove back home. When me and Karah arrived home,Adam was still asleep. I put away all the stuff I bought at wal-mart and I put Karah to sleep in her crib. I went and sat outside while I was smoking a cigarette. A few seconds later,Adam came out and smoked one with me. Me and Adam were talking about his job. He was really tired of not spending time with Karah and I. The only time he spends with us is whenever he's off the next day,but that's not enough time,because whenever he's asleep,we are awake.

It was almost Karah's birthday. She's going to be one year old. I couldn't believe my baby is going to be one. Hopefully,Adam will be home to come to the party,but I made sure before I sent out invitions.

Me- So. Are you off tonight?
Adam- No. I got work.
Me- Damn,well,Karah's birthday party is going to be Saturday.
Adam- Oh yeah,I forgot. And today is Thursday,right?
Me- Yes..it is.
Adam- Well,I can still be at her party,since I work night time.
Me-*smiles* Good. Im glad you can.
Adam- I can't believe our baby is going to be one.
Me- I know right! It seems like yesterday she was just born.

Adam and I sat there outside talking about Karah. She was our world. We love her so much,we still can't believe she's growing up so fast on us. It seems like it was yesterday when I was having her.Karah started crying a few minutes after we got done talking. I went and changed her diaper and put her back to sleep. In an hour,I'll have to feed her. I called Amy and Bailey to let them know about Karah's birthday party. They were so excited.

Well,it was that time again.Yep,time for Adam to go back to work. Lovely.Another lonely night without him beside me in my bed. I hate it when he works. I just hate sleeping without him. When I sleep alone,I can't sleep worth a flying fuck.

It was 4:00 AM and I gotten a call from the Police Station.

Me- Hello?
Officer- Yes,is this Mrs.Winchester?
Me-Yes..is everything okay?
Officer- Well,no it's not.
Me-*gets up and goes to smoke* What...is it?
Officer- Adam was going to get a drunk driver,and when he went to get him out of the car...the drunk driver..shot him..and he didn't make it.
Me-You're kidding,right!? *starts to tear up* Please tell me you are.
Officer- I'm not joking Mrs.Winchester..He's at the hospital in town.
Me- Ok.

I call Amy and Bailey to tell them. I took Karah to another friend of mine house while I went to the hospital. We all was in Adam's room. I sat beside Adams' bed looking at him crying. Dean and Sam were sitting trying not to show how they felt,but I couldn't help but too. I lost the one who means the most to me,besides' Karah. I can't believe this was really happening.

A few hours later,we all went back home. My friend kept Karah and Amy let me stay with her. I cried on Amys' shoulder and Bailey was there too.

I felt like dying,if it wasn't for Karah,I would went home and killed myself. I can't live without him,I love him too damn much. But,I have to think about Karah. I have to be strong for our babygirl.I also don't want Amy and Bailey be sad over me. They also mean alot to me. They're my sisters. I can't leave them. I just want to go far away and just be alone. This pain im feeling,will never go away. I will never in my whole life love again.